I was alright
Life seems to just flash by; but what’s the point of it all?
I always had the feeling that there must be a God; but why did I need Jesus as a saviour? What did I need saving from? I hadn’t done anything really bad. I was busy. Living a full life, working hard, building a career, buying bigger houses, and driving smarter cars. I was doing alright. All that other Jesus stuff could wait till later.
rejected
When my marriage broke up, I felt really bitter and angry with my ex-wife. I could not forgive her. I could not see any fault on my part. I felt rejected and lonely. I blamed her.
Looking for new social life, I turned, amongst other places, to find a lively family church.
the price paid
I made some good friends there, and at the age of 43 found out that Christians believe that Jesus died to pay our penalty for wandering away from a good relationship with God. But what did that mean?
Some time later, I had a startling experience. God confronted me; he told me that I could no longer blame others for what was happening in my life. He pointed out what I had done; but at the same time he told me that He had taken the blame for me on the cross.
A release
At an instant, the message of the Bible became a reality for me in my life. I had always had this fear that if I took the blame, then I would be left with an awful feeling of guilt. But, it wasn’t like that; when I admitted my faults to Jesus, there was a great feeling of release from guilt and blame.
